A little over a year ago, God asked me to move to St. Louis. I said, "No."
No - really. For a solid six months, I completely ignored God and made plans to move to Paris. One morning, in March of this year, I woke up with the most inexplicable sense of peace and knew that St. Louis was where I was supposed to be. From then on, I pursued the call.
The call did not come without its fair share of struggles. I readied to move to St. Louis without a house, a car, or a job. It was the biggest step of faith EVER. And guess what - God has shown His faithfulness and provision in ways that I have never seen. One day I'll be able to tell the testimony in full, and it will BLOW. YOUR. MIND. On the other end of the spectrum, my support system dwindled down to two. I was being questioned and discouraged about moving here from every angle. I had to decide for myself who I was going to please: the people in my life or God. Let me be clear: Your obedience to God is the ONLY thing that matters. The other people will come around (And if they don't - well, bye). One of the biggest lessons I learned this year was how to encourage myself. Previously, everyone told me that I could do anything that I could ever dream, but I never believed it. In the last nine months, my confidence has increased one-thousand percent. I believe in myself, and I believe in the God inside of me.
If God has asked you to do something, DO IT. He didn't ask you if you are qualified; He's the qualifier. He didn't ask you if you have everything you need; He's the provider. Seriously - jump in, do it, and be amazed by what He will do in your life. I'm not sure why we question God. Sometimes we pray for His will to be done and then refuse to do what He asks of us. God is PERFECT in everything He does and says. That means that if you obey Him, you're right in the center of His will; That's a good place to be.
St. Louis was not where I wanted to be. As I mentioned earlier, I was planning to move to Paris for a year... and if Paris didn't work out, I was planning to move to San Diego or Seattle. St. Louis was NOWHERE in my plans. I was ANGRY, CONFUSED, and FULL OF DOUBT... and I let God know it. But oh - how God has changed my heart. I have lived here for five days, and I am absolutely LOVING IT! I never thought that I could even LIKE it. God is faithful, you guys.
I am so thankful for all who have called + texted words of encouragement. It means the world. My support system has blossomed from two to a multitude. If you think about me in the coming weeks, say a prayer for me! I would so totally appreciate it.
I'm not sure what this next season of my life holds, but I do know that I am trusting God with my present and with my future. God never calls us to less... always, always more.