Confession: I have been struggling with my faith. For the past few months God has been showing me a lot of the great things that He has in store for my future, but I have been majorly doubting it all. ****Like ummmm--- are you sure that you want ME? Are you sure that I can do this? Are you sure? Are you sure? Are you sure? **** I have been studying John for the last week or so, and I came across this:
Legit. Slap in the face. So many times, after God has already shown me his plan, I beg Him to show me his plan. ***Like - for real this time, Jesus.*** After reading that verse, I felt so convicted. I AM THE JEW! This is how our conversations go:
I'm working on it, okay?
As I was studying my Bible today, I saw something that I have never seen before. John 20 is about the Resurrection of Jesus. At this point in scripture, Jesus is no longer in the tomb and both Peter and Mary Magdalene have assumed that someone has stolen Jesus' body. Jesus has just appeared to Mary:
A little later in the chapter, Jesus appears to the Disciples:
And a little later, Jesus appears to Thomas:
Mary needed to hear Jesus to believe. The disciples needed to see his hands and his side to believe. Thomas needed to feel the scars to believe. I LOVE THIS!!!!!!! God is a personal God, and He reveals Himself to us in a way that is unique to each of us. He created us, so He knows the way in which we learn best. When you are lacking in faith, don't be afraid to ask God for what you need. He has proved to us in scripture that He will come to us in a special way, and, as a result of that, our faith will be increased.
Sometimes our thinking is so dichotomous that we assume that if there is an inkling of doubt, it completely erases our belief. I love Mark 9:24.
In one breath he was saying that he believed and in the next he was asking God to help him with his doubts. I love that. It may not be that you're lacking faith to believe that Jesus is who He says that He is, but it may be that you are lacking faith that He will do what He said that He will do. Either way, ask God for confirmation and then take Him at his Word! Faith moves the heart of God.